Well its been about a month now since school has ended and Eba went to South Asia.  Things are getting better.

On another note I had a small inspiration for this site again.  I was sort of at odds with the name thinking I should change it. But then I was at work one day and I realized this is a good name for this site.  More Later

Now that I’m working at a church is it too late for my wild dreams?  I hope not.  What dreams you say…I don’t know I forgot them.  I would think so high during college.  I had these great ideas and dreams, but now I can’t find them.  I’ve been out of college for two weeks and I feel like old cold soup. I just remembered two things:

I want to translate the entire Bible from Greek.  I want to write a book about Hymns.  Maybe I forgot for a reason.  Those don’t seem like very easy tasks.  Writing a book seems as if it would take a long time.  Same with the greek stuff.  The entire Bible…? How many words are in the English Bible anyways? Typing in google gives the answer of 774,746 words.

Oh I don’t know.

The dream is fading, now I’m staring at the door
I know its over cause my feet have hit the cold floor
Check my reflection, I ain’t feelin what I see
It’s no mystery
Whatever happened to a passion I could live for
What became of the flame that made me feel more, feel more, feel more, feel more
And when did I forget…

Chorus
That I was made to love You
I was made to find You
I was made just for You
Made to adore You
I was made to love
And be loved by You …..

So, I don’t have a life goal. I don’t have a country I want to help. I don’t want to become rich, powerful, or popular. The other day at Sunday School we had a lesson about such things. Now mind you none of that is bad. I think it is good for people to have goals. I love when people want to go out and try to overcome some great obstacle. I mean the name of this website kind of implies that. But so far I have yet to have any type of specific life goal. Praying about such things can sure be helpful, so that is what I did. The conclusion came through a few things. I’ll name two. The first one is through a song by toby Mac. The lyrics are up top. Basically I was made to love you and be love by you. The second came by the devotional book My Utmost for His Highest. It says, Let God do what he likes with you, he wants you, he is jealous for you. I want to help people. I want to help people understand the Bible. I want to help people with their marriage. I want to help men and their relationship with Jesus. I want to learn more and more about Jesus and also the Bible. I also want to draw silly things. I want to watch silly movies and make people laugh. None of those things are some huge life goal. And I’m ok with that because its my relationship with God that matters. Not where I’m going in my life, but that I’m with God. Time and time again I have to get this recleared in my head. God first and then thats it. When I was a freshman in college I was trying to find an identity, and God said through the Bible that I will find my identity in him. Gosh this Christian life is harder than it seems sometimes right?